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There’s a lot that

I don’t understand and

try as I might, my mind

never gets the upper hand

Too much time is spent

on trying to figure out

how to stand taller than

those shadows of all my doubts

I just wish everything

could be clear and clean

free from sorrow, void of pain

love, being all it would ever mean

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So, what of love, I fret

knowing I must not have it right, yet

Tormented to blue so much

with all this passion and such

Tempted to seek apathy as spare for the pain

but that’s like believing a wish could stop the pouring rain

Love pounds down, strips to bare our most fragile part

to ache, to burn, to rip apart

 The bleeding makes it real

our humanity should make us feel

As a species it’s this, that is unique

from our very first day, love is what we seek

But how can I survive; stay alive

when this inner conflict never subsides

Love, so brutal, is slowly killing me

but without this war of self, only an empty shell I’d be

So, what of love, always spilling from my pen

Let me know you, love, I beg you again

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My heart is big

but not big enough

to hide the hurt behind

when you forget me

or speak words unkind

My heart is strong

but not strong enough

to lift the pain away

when you ignore me

or hold me at bay

My heart is full of love

but not full enough

sadness still finds a space

when I rest my eyes

on your empty face

No hands doth a heart have

How then can it hold love

 carry burdens heavy

or touch another’s

This vessel which feels

 passion, pain, love

 without end of depth

hath no need of these

nor limbs of any sort

for it holds, carries,

touches, feels in ways

hands could never

unless they turn to ash

 Damaged or broken

 still it beats on

physically whole

the shattering silent

to ears and eyes

while longing

for hands

to hold it

My heart is full

full of  love and pain

(pour it out)

pain from unrequited love

love that should never be fought for

(an angry shout)

for fighting goes against

against love’s very nature

nature, that beautiful place of peace

(this is the route)

peace which brings us back to the truth

truth made with pure love

(no room for doubt)

love so pure, there can be no pain

pain is for yesterday’s sorrows

(fading out)

sorrows forgotten, in tomorrow’s door to hope

hope opens my heart

(love alone, dances about)