I know Blue
He sometimes comes
to stay awhile with me
When he’s around
I can barely breathe
He gets caught in my throat
or lingers too long
just behind my eyes
Pretending to be a friend
he steals clear thoughts
right out of my head
I then wind up in tears
I don’t dislike Blue
At least he makes me cry
It’s better than being ignored
without knowing
or understanding
the reason why
Heartspell 
I suspect you’re right…better to know the why than not.